Open Mindness

I composed this article based on my lived experiences. I learned when I open my heart and mine to be aware… when I don’t open up, I set myself up to blow up. I’m learning that keeping things inside does not make them any better. In fact holding on to secret fears, secret feelings and fears makes them seem a lot worse than they probably are. When I keep things on the inside, the weight of it all can tear me up, hold me down, push me into situations that do not serve my best interest. Holding on to things can cause all sorts of disease, chemical and emotional imbalance, complete confusion and plain old despair. When I have a lot going on inside I must fine some way to let it out.

What I have discovered

I can talk about it. Cry about it and if I’m alone I can shout about it. I can walk it off or go to the gym and work it out. There are helpline lines, hotlines or a prayer line, but I must let someone know what’s going on inside. It is temping to eat about it, drink about or blow it up in smoke. An even better strategy is to write about it. Each of us comes to a point when we must trust someone enough to open ourselves up for review and examination. It’s not always easy! It is a challenge to admit or acknowledge our own faults. It is even more difficult to accept that I have made some costly mistakes, poor decisions and bad choices. For some reason it seems that I don’t want people to know that I am human. But I am and it’s really okay. I can not hide what I feel forever. It is essential to my sense of  well-being that I find a way to open up and let someone know what is going on inside. I have been afraid to open myself to self-examination or outside scrutiny. Today I am willing to release those things stored in my heart and mind that are causing me discomfort. That’s my story and I’m sticking to it!